"If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me." Jeremiah 29:13
I have never written a blog before, and writing is not one of my gifts - that's for sure! That is why I always say to Elise that God partnered us up for her writing abilities . . . lol. So let me start my first blog by praising the Lord, and thanking God for today!! :)
We wanted to start a blog that would be a place to give praise to God, a place to ask for prayer, and to share testimonies about how God is working in our lives.
Elise and I really feel that this store is a gift from God to help us spread his Word and share the power of Jesus Christ. There are so many beautiful resources out there that we want other people to have access to. We want this blog space to be a place where we all can support one another with prayer, encourage one another with our testimonies, and also a chance to suggest books or special Bibles or other products that have had an impact on your life and you think might be a help to others. A few times I have wanted to suggest a special book to a friend that would help that person with their struggles or shed some light on their situation, but I have held back because I thought they would think I was just trying to make a sale. But that's not the truth - the truth is it's really a “Fine Line” between wanting to help others from our hearts and letting people know about products that we have or can find for them, and that we are not just out to make a buck. We want our friends to know that the most important part of this store for us is Jesus Christ and we give him all the glory! So many of us are hurting and don't know what is missing. Being able to grow in relationship with God and to share our own testimonies with others is powerful and we need to listen to the Holy Spirit.
I want to share a bit of my own personal testimony about a gift that changed my life a few years ago. I was going through a very dark time in my life. For years I have battled depression and anxiety and I kept that part of my life very secret.I have been on and off medication. I would feel better and then go off of the medication, then I would fall back into a hole and the roller coaster would continue. Even some of my closest friends wouldn't know this. Those who do know me wouldn't believe that I do suffer from this mental illness. This is the first time that some of my friends and family will hear this. Around five years ago I was at the end of my rope.I had had enough of this over-worked life of working full time, raising kids, and it was a perfect time for the enemy to attack.But God had bigger plans for me! I was off work for about five months and had prayed to God to help me; for Him to send someone to show me the way, and help me to find what I was missing to fill the hole in me that never seemed filled. I always prayed to God every night and I believed in God, but something was still missing. I didn't know I could have a personal relationship with Him - that was the connection I was missing!
When I was back on my feet and back on my medication I returned back to work. Nobody knew why I was off and I didn't tell anyone. I just said it was for personal reasons. I was embarrassed that I needed help and didn't want others looking down on me. No one can truly understand unless they suffer from it. When I went back to work, my boss had transferred out while I was on sick leave and I had new boss. This new boss was a Christian, but I didn't know that, but God did!That's how God works, putting people into our lives to speak the truth for those who are so thirsty, and I was thirsty! This was a chance for him to be a witness to me. We were talking one night and I asked him what radio station he liked and said~~magic 100 or CHRI (our local Christian radio station).That conversation opened the doors to countless questions that I had about Jesus and the Bible: who was Jesus Christ? who were these disciples? I knew a little bit about the gospel, I celebrated Christmas, I knew some of the stories, but they were just stories, weren't they? I didn't understand the real sacrifice He made for us and how much He loves us. My boss listened to the Holy Spirit and gave me one of my most treasured gifts, a Bible - that gift changed my life! Learning God's word is the key to knowing God and starting a relationship with Him - that, and prayer.
So much has happened since then, and I have learned so much.I am still learning and growing in Christ! I hope you too will share your stories. I still battle with depression and anxiety. I just recently have accepted that I have to take medication after another denial that I needed it. God sent another powerful witness at just the right time who helped me and prepared me for another dark hole, but this time I had His promises to fall back on. I pray that I will have the courage to share that story sometime soon!